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Correspondence:!Amit!Persad,!Division!of!Neurosurgery,!University!of!Saskatchewan,!103!Hospital!Drive,!
Saskatoon,!SK,!S7N!0W8;!email:!amit.persad@usask.ca!
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1Division!of!Neurosurgery,!University!of!Saskatchewan,!Saskatchewan,!Canada!
Published:!May!31,!2018!
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On!March!1,!2017,!just!over!a!year!ago,!like!all!other!
Canadian!medical! students! participating!in!CaRMS,!I!
woke!up!nervous!but!eager!to!find!out!where!I!would!
be!spending!the!next!phase!of!my!medical!training.!I!
had! avoided! thinking! about! CaRMS! ever! since!
submitting!my!rank!list,!but!the!stress!of!the!situation!
became! more! pressing!with! each! passing! minute.!
With! only! a! half! hour! left! before! results! were!
released,!there!was!hardly!anything!else!on!my!mind.!
I!remember!being!in!my!car!at!10am,!pulling!over!into!
a! grocery! parking! lot! to! open! the! result! page.! My!
phone! was! being! bombarded! with! messages! from!
family!members,!friends,!and!classmates!sharing!their!
results!and!inquiring!about!my!own.!
We& regret& to& inform& you& that& you& did& not&
match&to&a&position.&
My!initial!reaction!was!shock.!I!could!not!believe!that!
this! had! been! my! outcome.! I! had! done! everything!
they! told! me! was! needed,! like! so! many! other!
candidates! before! me! who! had! been! in! the! same!
position.!I!initially!did!not!believe!it,!and!had!to!take!a!
moment!where!I!just!sat!there!in!the!car.!I!must!have!
refreshed!the!page!at!least!twenty!times,!waiting!for!
the! error! to! correct! itself! or! to! reveal! itself! to! be! a!
joke.! The! email! from! the! University! of! Alberta!
Undergraduate! Medical! Education!office! requesting!
my! presence! at! an! urgent! planning! meeting!
cemented!the!crushing!reality!to!me.!!
Though! I! had! recognized! the! possibility! of! being!
unmatched,!I!did!not!dwell!on!the!chance.!Like!many!
other!students! in! my! situation,! I! settled!myself!with!
the!fact!that!I!had!worked!hard!on!my!rotations,!read!
diligently,!and!done!electives!and!research!in!order!to!
strengthen!my!application.!There! was! a! fair! amount!
of!entitlement!inherent!in!this!attitude,!and!I!was!not!
exempt!from!this.!The!difficulty!lies!in!numbers:!when!
too!many!students!apply!to!a!specialty,!some!must!go!
unmatched.!!
There! are! many! studies! that! try! to! identify! what!
makes! a! good! resident.1,2!Factors! like! academic!
inclination,! clinical! reviews,! reference! letters,!
personal!statements,!and!interviews!are!all!taken!into!
account!by! the! reviewing!body! and! used!to! make! a!
gestalt!of!each!individual,!which!is!then!tested!by!the!
interview!process.!It!is!truly!a!subjective!process!that!
is!imperfect!and!based!on! tenets! that! are!unclear!to!
both! the! candidate! and! the! program.3!Ongoing!
discussion! related! to! Wilson! &!Bordman3!reflects! a!
lack! of! clarity! and! a! recognition! that! the! process!
needs!to!be!improved,!with!a!marked!lack!of!objective!
criteria.4!Programs!do!not!know!what!to!look!for!in!a!
candidate,! sometimes! asking!silly!questions! at!
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interviews!and!making!decisions!that!are!life!changing!
for! applicants,! as! suggested!to! me! by! a! program!
director.!!
It! is! impossible! to! ignore! that! th is! system! does! not!
work!for!everyone.!2017!set!a!record!for!the!number!
of! unmatched! students! in! Canada.5!One! student!
unfortunately! took! his! own! life! after! being! left!
without! a! residency! position! for! two! consecutive!
years,!leaving!behind!a!detailed!note!of!his!grievances!
with!the!system.!Typically,!neurosurgery!is!a!discipline!
with! a! similar! number! of! applicants! and! available!
positions.!The! year! I! entered! CaRMS! did! not! fit! that!
pattern,!with!31!qualified!applicants!applying!to!only!
15!positions.!Many! individuals! who! may! have!made!
excellent! residents! and! eventually! neurosurgeons!
were! not! selected! for! admission! to! residency! due,!
almost!entirely,!to!sheer!numbers.!!
For! me,! the! condition! of! being! unmatched! was!
devastating.! I! recall! sitting! through! the! emergency!
meeting!with!our!faculty!counselors!and!not!looking!
up!from! the! floor.! I! could!not!believe!the! situation! I!
was! in.! Two! months! later,! I! remember! writing! my!
MCCQE!Part!1!exam!and!frequently!being!tempted!to!
change!answers!that! I! was!sure!that!I!had! answered!
correctly,!simply!because!I!was!no!longer!as!confident!
in! myself.! I! approached! many! of! the! neurosurgery!
faculty!that!I!trusted!for!advice,!which!was!largely!the!
same:!CaRMS!usually!does!not!work!the!second!time;6!
being! unmatched! would! almost! inevitably! lead! to!
practice!outside!of!neurosurgery.!Even!surgeons!who!
had!given!me!glowing!evaluations!and!thought!that!I!
would! be! a! highly! sought-after! candidate! were! not!
optimistic!at!my!chances!a!second!time.!Their!reversal!
of!opinion!was!earth-shattering.!!
Interestingly! and! fortunately,! as! I! continued! to! seek!
out!opinions,! some! residents!and!faculty!opened! up!
to!me!about! their! difficulties! with!matching.!A!well-
known!faculty!member! I! completed! an! elective!with!
shared!with!me!his!experience! of! being! unmatched,!
but! being! able! to! get! an! empty! spot! in! the! second!
round.!We!agreed!that!it!was!a!confidence-breaking!
situation!that!felt!frightening!and!hopeless.!However,!
now!I!knew!that!there!were!those!who!had!shared!my!
experience.! This! was! a! faculty! member! that! I! had!
worked! closely! with! and! respected,! and! I! was!
encouraged!by!the!similarity!of!his!experience.!!
Another!faculty! member! in! cardiac! surgery,! with!
whom!I! had!worked!during!a!selective,!also! reached!
out!to!me!sharing!his!experience.!He!had!not!initially!
matched!to!his!specialty!of!choice;!instead!of!cardiac!
surgery!he!was! matched! to! general!surgery.!He! had!
come!to! enjoy! his! general! surgery! residency,! but! a!
position! eventually! opened! up! in! his! third! year! of!
residency!and! he!was!able! to!switch!over.!His!advice!
was!that!even!if!you!don’t!match!to!your!first!choice!
specialty,!there!are!often!routes!to!return!to!it.!Even!
though!he!eventually!switched,!he!encouraged!me!to!
give!the!discipline!that!you!are!matched!to!a!chance.!!
The! connections! that! I! made! with! people,! such! as!
these,!while!being!unmatched!were!helpful!to!me!and!
gave!me!a!lot!of!insight!into!the!way!that!they!handled!
themselves! during! their! period! of! not! matching.!
Without! exception,! all!had! reflected! on! themselves!
and! where! they! might! have! gone! wrong,! and! had!
become! more! grateful! for! their! position! after! their!
experience.!All!were!motivated!to!securing!a!position!
in!their!disciplines!of!choice!after!securing!a!spot!in!a!
different! residency,! and! eventually! became! highly!
successful!in!the!field!of!their!dreams.!!
I!also!had!the!opportunity!to!talk!to!a!few!residents!in!
other! disciplines! who! had! not! matched! to!
neurosurgery,!but!had!wanted!to.!I!asked!them!about!
their! own! experiences.! Most! of! them! were! bitter!
about! CaRMS! and! toward! neurosurgery! as! a!
discipline.! Moreover,! they! were! somewhat!
disparaging! of! many! of! their! colleagues! who! had!
matched!to!neurosurgery.!In!some!cases,!previously!
unmatched!candidates!were!quite!acidic,!particularly!
regarding!the! individuals! who!had! left! the! specialty.!
In! their! eyes,! this! was! a! waste! of! precious!
neurosurgical! positions.! Certainly,! I! understand!
where!these!individuals’!feelings!stem!from,!but!this!
animosity!neither!makes!one!a!stronger!individual!nor!
one! suited! to! train! in! a! program.! In! fact,! it! may!
subvert! the! learning! that! can! come! from! being!
unmatched.!!
The! experience! of! being! unmatched! was! certainly!
negative.!In!fact,!it!was!likely!the!worst!thing!that!has!
ever! happened! to! me.! But! what! I! want! to!
communicate!is! that! the! experience,! because!it! was!
the!worst!thing!that!happened!to!me,!was!good.!One!
of!the!most!important!abilities!of!a!resident!physician!
is! the! ability! to! cope! with! stress.1!A! prior! study! on!
attitudes! of! staff! neurosurgeons! towards! incoming!
neurosurgery! residents! is! that! the! ability!to! handle!
stress!is!a!skill!that!is!more!difficult!to!teach!and!more!
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important!to!have!when!entering.!I!did!not!know!how!
I! would! handle! failure! befor ehand,! but! now! I! know!
that! I! am! able! to! tolerate! and! recover! from! failure!
related!stress!relatively!effectively.!!
In!addition,!I!was!met!with!a!situation!that!had!come!
about! in! large! part! due! to! my! actions! and! choices.!
Many!poor!outcomes!in!medicine!can!be!written!off!
as! circumstantial! or! multifactorial,! and! in! a! lot! of!
cases!this!is!certainly!true.!Even! in!my!case,!it!would!
be! easy! to! attribute! my! lack! of! success! to! numbers!
and! circumstances!(15! spots! and! 31!applicants).!
Again,!this!is!likely!partially!true,!but!to!ignore!the!role!
that!I!played!in!my!failure!to!match!would!be!to!miss!
out!on!the!learning!that!came! from! the! subsequent!
journey.!!
Many! people! applying! to! medical! residencies! will!
have! the! same! set! of! experiences! that! I! did!
beforehand,! with! no! real! exposure! to! failure.! A!
lifelong!string!of!uninterrupted!success!fosters!a!quiet!
sense! of! entitlement,! which! is! sustained! with! each!
consecutive! achievement.! This! is! not! necess arily! an!
active! sentiment,! but! rather! one! that! comes! from!
continual! success.! For! me,! it! was! a! transformative!
experience.!I!knew!that!I!could!not!rest!on!my!laurels!
and!simply!re-apply!again!with!a!similar!application;!it!
did!not!work!the!first!time,!why!would!it!work!again?!
I!would!need!to!be!the!best!that!I!could!be,!and!that!
attitude!translated!into!the!rest!of!my!work.!I!gave!a!
lot! more! of! my! effort! to! the! task s! before! me,! from!
clinical!work!to!publications.!I!decided!that!I!would!try!
again;!I!took!the!mindset!that!if!every!neurosurgeon!
who!failed!something!along! the! way! gave!up,!there!
would!be!none!practicing.!!
Being!unmatched!in!CaRMS!created!the!potential!for!
immense! growth.! For! me,! th is! took! the! form! of! no!
longer!taking!success!for!granted,!increasing!my!work!
ethic,! and! learning! to! cope! with! stress! and!
uncertainty.!This!growth!may!look!and!feel!differently!
for!others.! My! aim! was!not!to!point!out!the! flaws! in!
CaRMS,! or! to! critique! resident! selection,! but! to!
emphasize! to! students! and! programs! that! those!
applicants!who!have!endured!an!unmatched!cycle!are!
not!necessarily!the!same!people!they!were!when!they!
moved! through! the! process! of! electives! and!
interviews! the! first! time.! The! experience! of! going!
unmatched!can!elicit!profound!changes!and!personal!
growth! through!intense!introspection.! To! other!
students!in!this!same!position!as!I!was,!I!am!not!saying!
it!is!by!any!means!a!desirable!journey!one!should!long!
for,! but! it! is! an! opportunity! for! reflection! and!
improvement.! And! it! could! become! a! marker! of!
desirable! residency! candidates.!Jordan! Peterson!
wrote!in!his!book!12&Rules&for&Life:&“There!are!so!many!
ways! that! things! can! fall! apart,! or! fail! to! work!
altogether,!and!it!is!always!wounded!people!who!are!
holding!it!together.!They! deserve!some!genuine!and!
heartfelt!admiration!for!that.!It!is!an!ongoing!miracle!
of!fortitude!and!perseverance”.7!This!was!in!reference!
to! those! ill! or! wounded,! but! for! the! candidates!
recovering!from!the!shock!of!an!unsuccessful!match!
it!may!have!some!relevance!as!well.!To!move!forward!
shows!a!fortitude!that!would!serve!the!candidate!well!
in!a!gruelling!residency.!!
I!have! been! granted! a! position! with! a! neurosurgery!
program! only! four! months! after! being! unmatched.!
However,! those! are! four! months! that! I! will! never!
forget! and! have! taught! me! lessons! that! I! hope! will!
benefit! me! throughout! a! challenging!residency.! My!
experience!has!left!me!with!an!openness!to!learn,!an!
ability! to! recognize! my! limitations! and! areas! for!
growth,!and!a!sense!of!gratitude!to!be!able!to!work!in!
the! field! that! I! fell! in! love! with.! To! any! of! my!
colleagues! and! future! colleagues! enduring! the!
hardships!of!an!unmatched!cycle—try!your!hardest!to!
find! opportunity! buried! in! disappointment,! replace!
your! fear,! self-doubt,! and! hopelessness! with!
determination! and! humility,! and! you! will! emerge! a!
stronger!CaRMS!applicant.!!
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Conflicts!of!interest:!There!are!no!conflicts!of!interest!
to!declare.!!
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